i am finally sober for once in my life
with only water running through me
but even with my mind at its clearest
it’s still shackled, yearning to be free
.
i’ve become the noise of my friends again
friends that i put aside for a while
but when the noise stops and i’m alone
my thoughts wander for miles
.
when you left, my surplus love overflowed
and I placed then everywhere i can
but no matter where i put it
i could never leave where it began
.
shouldn’t sharing my love fix things?
i should be forgetting by now
but no matter how much love i give,
my connection still doesn’t go down
.
i tried distractions, i tried everything
anything that could steal my attention
but these attempts are hopeless
in putting to death my affection
.
self-focus is a myth, and i found out
that all the love i give to me
was done in the now vain hope
that we could make best what we could be