home

all i have

i am finally sober for once in my life

with only water running through me

but even with my mind at its clearest

it’s still shackled, yearning to be free

.

i’ve become the noise of my friends again

friends that i put aside for a while

but when the noise stops and i’m alone

my thoughts wander for miles

.

when you left, my surplus love overflowed

and I placed then everywhere i can

but no matter where i put it

i could never leave where it began

.

shouldn’t sharing my love fix things?

i should be forgetting by now

but no matter how much love i give,

my connection still doesn’t go down

.

i tried distractions, i tried everything

anything that could steal my attention

but these attempts are hopeless

in putting to death my affection

.

self-focus is a myth, and i found out

that all the love i give to me

was done in the now vain hope

that we could make best what we could be