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i saw another universe

through teary eyes, i can see another universe

out of the blur, i could make out faint shapes

i could see two people next to each other

connected by their hands

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i could see the first day they met

curiosity brimming from their speech

like they encountered a rare treasure

a sliver of gold in the mine of their lives

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i saw them in the rain under an umbrella

shoes soaked in water and mud

time seemed so still then, like perpetual rain

or perhaps a rain that they never wanted to end

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i saw them arm in arm in a bed

doing nothing but looking into each others eyes

and feeling each others touch on skin and spirit

and wishing this would never end

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the day finally came, and it all became fragile

fear tore against desires of togetherness

but in this other universe, i ran back to you

and i swore on my life that we could make it beautiful

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in that universe, they fought more

but held on to faith in the beautiful

and never let our inhibitions seperate us

from a love that persisted through fire

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i saw them older, with newfound hardships

conflict that manifested as obligations grew

desires of one that did not complement the other

and visions of different futures that could never be

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but they swallowed it up and left it behind

because it was well worth the pain

no matter the outcome, because the only future they wanted

was one where they were together

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i saw one future where they got the future they worked for

and another where they were not so lucky

but in both futures, they were smiling

because they kept loving, and that was all that was important

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i blinked and the tears cleared

we all have to wake up from our fantasies

but was something so simple

the one thing that should only be kept a dream?

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we tread forward, as two people

but not hand-in-hand this time

we move forward individually, but every day

i wish it was you that was by my side

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could i stay with you even when it hurts?

or when the world falls apart around us?

would i grow impatient and wish for solitude

or would i find solace in your presence?

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now, i find solace in solitude

and in that same solitude i hurt the most

but it takes quiet to realize the importance of company

something i could never appreciate until now

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we use hope to wrap up our heavy past

living regretlessly means having never lived

i know that in some universe we didn't need to live like this

but in this one, we have no other choice

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sometimes i envy the two of them in the other universe

where they can live the dream while i sink in my reality

but perhaps i too am being envied by someone else

who wishes they sunk like i did

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there are so many universes out there

and in so many of them we were happy

but there are equally as many where we are sad

who can say which one this is?